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Codename: The Gift Of Change
Real Name: The HA!
Height: 5'8 Weight: 180lbs
Special Trainning: 1985-1996 School of Hard Knocks
Skills: Got mad skills yo!
Story: After successfuly defending the lighting store from the evil customers our hero jumped back online to make another post...

Apr. 12th, 2005 @ 12:19 am FInal Post

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I'm Feeling:

alone

I've learned so much about myself and all of the hidden baggage that I own these past few weeks. Kayla and I are no more and I still blame myself for the whole thing. I'm not writing to this to boast any sides or desperately try to get her back, I just think this may be the first post I've made that I feel truly connected to and that worries me even more. I have a lot of deeply seeded issues that I had the fortune to learn about in the most painful way. I honestly feel like my life is just a series of failed events and it's taking what little courage I have left to type what I have in me. Despite all opinions I wish I could have done more for us and now I find myself in this situation where I have to get my life sorted out or I truly won't be fit to help anybody. I can't express how much pain I've held inside and taken it out on those who didn't deserve it and now in the end do I really understand what it was I had, and for that I'm sorry.

I've had the past few days to focus on what I need to do with me and it will take a while till I feel complete and confident enough to try my hand at love again. Money issues, depression, trust, honesty are not going to come easily and I feel that all of this is going to get a ton harder to solve before it gets better. I will take my love's advice and seek out some sorta medical help in the near future. There's so much I wanna say but even more I have to do.

I know I said it many times, even after it was too late but I love you.
Other than that I've got nothing left.

Peace be unto you all
Hashim

Mar. 11th, 2005 @ 12:04 am (no subject)

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I feel like I've spent the last three months drowning my soul in the abyss of hope. Hope that my patience with the people I love and the life that I work for don't take me for granted. I've bitched about my problems to some, ingested the same from others, and even took out the rest on the undeserving but despite it all I cannot seem to answer the question "Why do you care so much?"

( understanding my Dad ) I dunno I feel like sometimes that I want to make everything in the world right so damn bad is because I'm afraid to look inside. I just came to the realization today that more people care about me than I have for them. I've been fighting back tears this whole night because I feel like I've exiled myself in this since. I've been scared what people would think so I just got used to telling only all of the good shit that happens to me and only I need to face what ails me. I'm just tired of caring. Maybe being alone all together isn't such a bad idea. I'm only 26 and there's so many more years left I don't know how I plan to make it.

Dec. 24th, 2004 @ 10:22 am X-Mas highs & woes

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I'm still working on this piece for Kayla's folks and I'm wishing to have it done by tonight. It's a piece on hummingbirds over some flowers and the flowers is holding me up. I started on this on Wednseday and intended to work on it all last night but that plan was derailed due to unfortunate circumstances. I got a call from the manager at the comic store I work at that my friend Ben who was covering the day, that his mother had died and he left immediately for the midwest. I happily filled in for him after hearing about it (and I've been feeling horrible for him since then too). I didn't end up at home till about 10:30p after working and stopping at the grocery store. So I attempt to work on the piece some more but I was too tired so I HAVE TO DO IT right after work. I can't wait to relax.

Dec. 23rd, 2004 @ 11:46 am Things that make you go hmmmmm.

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Now not including relatives and lovers, why is there a double standard about calling out women on farting?

Dec. 20th, 2004 @ 11:05 am I'm all torn up....

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I'm Feeling:

melancholy

So, I just put in my 2 weeks notice here at the lighting store and I feel all squishy inside. I just took another job offer that will start me off with a dollar per hour less than I'm currently making but I think I'll fare better over there. I'm all torn over this issue because I've been here for about 2 years and so much has and hasn't happened with my "career" here. I've made some mistakes in the past as well as done some outstanding work, and I say that with complete modesty. I've only received one raise the entire span of my working here but I never argued that only because I honestly didn't think I deserve one lately. Even according to a few employees here I should be getting paid much more than them because I can do all of their jobs when they're missing but noe of them can do mine. Also the daily stress is just getting old. I have a much better appreciation for customer service now but I wonder how many more days I can handle some rich fuck I never met yelling at me because his lights that he practaly got for free a coming in a day late. I don't know, I feel like I've been here for so long that I just became a permanent fixture here and eventually I would have been let go for one bullshit reason or another.

And despite all the crap I've talked about this place I still feel tears welling up inside.

My last day is the 31st.

Dec. 15th, 2004 @ 11:55 am For the love of Streisand

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I'm Feeling:

hungry

So I show up to job #3 (Auction Gallery) eager to see what it was we were selling . Usually on tuesday nights we sell the "less important" items from old estates like item #179 Log Carved Figure of A Man (it looks exactly the way it sounds, and yes that sold for $5.00) but generally its just some shitty old furniture. The only thing that really stood out was the extensive collection of Barbara Streisand ....crap.. that came from this one particular estate.

Consisting of: 1 poster of her CBS performance when she was 17 (right after the invention of the TV I'm sure), 50 CDs (*plus the christmas album too!), 20 books, Farewell concert wine bottle (guess who's picture was on it), the CD box set from final concert, tape box set from final concert, 8 DVD's (movies only), 3 autographed pictures, 10 magnets, 3 mugs, 20 VHSs (some were personally taped from TV interviews & biographies) , and a 5 foot custom oil painting.

And from what I understand that's what we just took from the estate to sell after the relatives took all of the "valuable" items. Now by no means am I a fan of Strsisand but in all honestly I do wish I had that level of dedication (or psychosis depending on how you look at it) to follow a favorite thing. When does a thing like that become unhealthy. And I also wonder if Streisand knows that collectively all of the listed items above isn't worth more than $100.

Dec. 7th, 2004 @ 05:49 pm Feh

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I just beat a girl at arm wrestling.

I feel so mighty.

The Icon says it all.

I promised myself that I will write a real post soon.

Dec. 6th, 2004 @ 05:20 pm And now more: USELESS INFORMATION

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Bizarre Truth In Advertising:

These are some nominees for the Chevy Nova Award. This is
given out in honor of the GM's fiasco in trying to market
this car in Central and South America. "No va" means, of
course, in Spanish, "it doesn't go".

* The Dairy Association's huge success with the campaign
"Got Milk?" prompted them to expand advertising to Mexico.
It was soon brought to their attention the Spanish transla-
tion read "Are you lactating?"

* Coors put its slogan, "Turn It Loose," into Spanish, where
it was read as "Suffer From Diarrhea."

* When Gerber started selling baby food in Africa, they used
the same packaging as in the US, with the smiling baby on
the label. Later they learned that in Africa, companies
routinely put pictures on the labels of what's inside, since
many people can't read.

* An American T-shirt maker in Miami printed shirts for the
Spanish market which promoted the Pope's visit. Instead of
"I saw the Pope" (el Papa), the shirts read "I Saw the
Potato" (la papa).

* Pepsi's "Come Alive With the Pepsi Generation" translated
into "Pepsi Brings Your Ancestors Back From the Grave" in
Chinese.

* The Coca-Cola name in China was first read as "Kekoukela",
meaning "Bite the wax tadpole" or "female horse stuffed with
wax", depending on the dialect. Coke then researched 40,000
characters to find a phonetic equivalent "kokou kole",
translating into "happiness in the mouth."

Nov. 18th, 2004 @ 05:25 pm More Useless Information

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+--------------------- Bizarre Trivia----------------------+

Workers were suspended from a Las Vegas hospital in 1980 for
betting on when patients would die.

There are more bacteria in your mouth than there are people
in the world.

The cavity fighter found in toothpaste is made from recycled
tin.

No one knows where Mozart is buried.

Gardening is the best exercise for maintaining healthy bones.

Australian Prime Minister Bob Hawke was in the "Guinness Book
of World Records" for consuming 2.5 pints of beer in 12
seconds.

Forty trillion dollars changes hands each day worldwide.

The average person takes 18,000 steps in one day.

Morbidly obese humans are the world's heaviest primates;
gorillas are after that at 485 pounds.

Forty one percent of the moon is not visible from the Earth
at any time.

From the age of 30, humans gradually begin to shrink.

Nov. 15th, 2004 @ 03:32 pm (no subject)

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I'm Feeling:

O-TAY

O.k., this is cool. Got it from

dhyanis.

20 years ago, I:
1. Was 5 years old and in kindergarden.
2. Was living with my mom and dad.
3. Was proud to be able to spell "mesopotamia"
4. thought my dad was the greatest warrior to ever live.
5. Knew the lyrics to too many Bob Marley songs.

15 years ago, I:
1. Went to an Islamic private school.
2. Sat in my favorite tree and read stories all day.
3. lived with my dad.
4. Was a proud 6th grader.
5. Wondered what kind of man I would be in the future.

10 years ago, I:
1. was in the 11th grade.
2. getting used to high school.
3. Hung out with Ike, Corey, and Alex everyday
4. Played Street Fighter 2 all the time.
5. Lived with momma.

5 years ago, I:
1. just started working at a dance studio.
2. was building my self confidence.
3. had a hour commute to work.
4. Was extremely horny.
5. hung out with my friends everyday.

3 years ago, I:
1. Mourning the loss of my father.
2. saving up to buy another car.
3. working at a parking garage.
4. getting used to living by myself.
5. hated MARTA with a passion.

1 year ago, I:
1. was talking to Kayla online and getting to know her better.
2. was staying up late for no reason.
3. Was lonely.
4. Had a hamster.
5. Watched wrestling religiously.

This past year, I:
1. Have done some decent art.
2. Have started believe in my talent.
3. Have been in a hell of a relationship.
4. Have learned what sacrificing really meant.
5. Have gotten to know myself better.

Yesterday, I:
1. slept till 3 pm.
2. Drove out to decatur to pick up the kids.
3. Put kids to bed at 7pm.
4. Kissed Kayla a lot.
5. Watched Hellboy.

Today, I:
1. Woke up .
2. Had 3 cups of decafe, 2 cups of green tea, and a can of Mountian Dew.
3. Showed the engagement pictures to my co-workers.
4. Tooled around online when I shoulda been working.
5. Can't wait to go home.

Tomorrow, I:
1. Will have to work both jobs.
2. Will force myself to draw something.
3. Fuddle my way through both jobs.
4. Will call my sister.
5. Will try to remember where I came from and where I'm going.

Nov. 14th, 2004 @ 10:35 am SO TIRED!

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I hung out with the "Boys" last night. Not much happened. We watched Van Wilder, it was typical for a college movie and I saw Dawn of the Dead and now I have a new fear of zombies that run like track stars. I'm going to go rest now.
love,
Hashim

Nov. 7th, 2004 @ 12:50 am Whoops

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And in other news...

NEW YORK (Reuters) - A National Guard F-16 fighter plane mistakenly fired off 25 rounds of ammunition at the Little Egg Harbor Intermediate School in South New Jersey on Wednesday night.

( And the explanation )

Nov. 2nd, 2004 @ 11:50 pm Blog Fun!

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Background Noise: "Ghetto Rock" Mos Def

You can ask me three questions. Any three, no matter how personal, private or random, I will answer them honestly (I may email the answers to you if its THAT private). BUT, you must post this in your LJ to give your friends, including me, a chance to ask you 3 questions.(You don't really have to, but it's fun!)

SO far I've started my story for national write a novel month and I wish I could type faster(and spell better than a 3rd grader). I'm pretty psyched about it although I really don't believe that I'll come close to finishing by the deadline. Whatever comes of it I hope to transpose it to comic book format (don't worry ladies it's not a superhero story, it's about a cute bunny) Other than that I'm going to go cut my hair get some rest and hope to wake up to a sane country in the morning.

Oct. 30th, 2004 @ 10:21 am Boondocks

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Good luck to us all!

Oct. 20th, 2004 @ 11:14 am Bizarre Factoids (More useless info)

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The opposite sides of a cube of dice will always equal 7.

A cheetah does not roar, it purrs.

The first bike ever didn't have wheels. People walked it
along.

No two zebras have the same kind of stripes.

Reindeer stay warm in the arctic cold by eating moss.

Dolphins keep one eye open while they sleep.

Cats measure width with their whiskers.

A giraffe's tongue is 21 inches long.

The Rafflesia flower smells like rotten meat.

It takes 3,000 cows to make enough leather for one year's
supply of NFL footballs.

Sharks can never stop moving.

Sobicphobia is the fear of being afraid.

Oct. 18th, 2004 @ 02:32 pm Stupid meme

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thegiftofchange's LiveJournal Slut Stats
The below percentages indicate what

thegiftofchange has done with the 24 people on his friends list!

met

45.8%

hugged

33.3%

dated

4.2%

kissed

8.3%

seen topless

20.8%

seen naked

4.2%

phone sexed

0.0%

made out

4.2%

oral sex

4.2%

fucked

4.2%

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Oct. 17th, 2004 @ 10:21 am Boondocks

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Oct. 16th, 2004 @ 04:49 pm Adding insult to injury

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I'm Feeling:

more uncomfortable

... I just snarfed a fucking bagel. I really don't care to go into specifics but I can assure you that it's not a pleasant feeling.

So to add the non-stop throbbing pain in my side from the bees everything in this house has a buttery cinnamon-raisin smell to it.

Oct. 16th, 2004 @ 01:20 pm I'm such a wussy

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I'm Feeling:

uncomfortable

I got stung twice by some yellow jackets today (both on my right side, one under my arm and the other on the back of my ribs) and it hurts like a bitchy-bitch! All I wanted to do was take the girls out to the park and get them outta Kayla's hair for a moment and this shortened the experience.

FEH!

Oct. 14th, 2004 @ 08:44 am Introducing job #4

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I'm Feeling:

content

...being paid to test video games for a couple of hours every last thursday of the month.

Yee-haw!

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